Ok so I'm going to start writing stuff..Which is not necassarily gaurenteed to be "good" stuff..(whatever that is, thanks negative self talk!) .. But I need to start somewhere in my "no longer being small, guilty and silent" protest!
It would be easy not to write anything and just stay hiding behind other people's wonderfullness.. But I'll give this little voice a voice and see what she has to say. People have always told me to write a book.. But I don't know if I'm a "writer..." but what I can do is tell you a series of "stories". So maybe I can be a story teller
I have just come out of a hard, dark place this winter.. I have chucked a lot of shit, changed alot of connections in my life, cried alot.. And refocused my energy, which has felt both deeply painful and deeply freeing. I guess this new me (who is a bit sick of bullshit - my own old bullshit mainly) is what has emerged. So will see what she comes up with to share with you.
Posting a photo feels important.. as well as self indulgent.. But why is that? Because I shouldn't exist? Because someone, somewhere has said that it's bad? (or because my hairs messy!) .. Oh well...
Sometimes I look at myself and have no idea who this new person is. I've been a mum and carer since I was 15 years old. I wouldn't know who I am outside of taking care of people. People I absolutly love dearly! But somewhere in there I became invisible. So photos feel visible! So this is visible me
So hi friends .. My names Michelle. I'm 38 and a solo parent of 4 fabulous, creative, smart teenage/adult kids. I have a job I absolutly love teaching Community Services at TAFE.. And there's some stories I'd like to share with you if you want to grab a tea and join me! I'll be back!
PS This feels super hard to press post on.. But really what's to lose.. Fear is going to stop us from doing anything new, fun, adventurous!
"Finding your passion isn't just about careers and money. It's about finding your authentic self. The one you've buried beneath other people's needs." Kristin Hannah
Posting a photo feels important.. as well as self indulgent.. But why is that? Because I shouldn't exist? Because someone, somewhere has said that it's bad? (or because my hairs messy!) .. Oh well...
Sometimes I look at myself and have no idea who this new person is. I've been a mum and carer since I was 15 years old. I wouldn't know who I am outside of taking care of people. People I absolutly love dearly! But somewhere in there I became invisible. So photos feel visible! So this is visible me
So hi friends .. My names Michelle. I'm 38 and a solo parent of 4 fabulous, creative, smart teenage/adult kids. I have a job I absolutly love teaching Community Services at TAFE.. And there's some stories I'd like to share with you if you want to grab a tea and join me! I'll be back!
PS This feels super hard to press post on.. But really what's to lose.. Fear is going to stop us from doing anything new, fun, adventurous!
"Finding your passion isn't just about careers and money. It's about finding your authentic self. The one you've buried beneath other people's needs." Kristin Hannah
Feels like more than 500 important words - xxx
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